A Year As​.​.​.

by Sad Giants

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released May 6, 2016

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Sad Giants is the solo moniker for Bobby Benedict.

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Track Name: Fuck You
Four whole years
counting down on every day in fear
waiting for the bomb to fall, I'm here
not knowing what to do
but drink too much and tell my friends fuck you

It's that time
where I'd skip town and leave everything behind
make some cash and try to make things right
but right and wrong are skewed
get wasted and tell all my friends fuck you

Guess I've changed
been too long for me to meet your gaze
strangers now lost in this muddled haze
can't even count the days
but fuck you anyways I'm not the only one whose changed

and I know you'll get drunk like me and find some
brand new friends, make some memories and lose
me in the end, but that's life's little test
so fuck everyone equally I guess,
but I wish you the best.
Track Name: My America
I believed everything I was told
that the pillars that i had built
were on a foundation that's proven from time
to be stable, not a fable.
A downright lie.
Now my head is fucked up and I'm scrambling
for my own life, for a real future.
There's nothing tangible that I can glean and
no one said a thing.

A club of tight lips, just give us your money kid
and then when you're done with it the world
will open up and you will be free.
Well where's the fucking marchers,
where's the goddamn parade?
Where's the jobs, the security, where is my life
to be made? On the backs of the others?
On the graves that we dance? Look like
class is is session so let's get to the lesson
so we can just get educated right up the ass.

Welcome to America,
sometimes you're born with it, sometimes you kill
for it, welcome to America.

I just want to feel something, but I feel tired and alone
on a winding conveyor belt built on the back of the
working poor.

Kill anything that scares you, shoot anything that moves
burn the evidence and blacklist the families,
leave nothing to prove
Track Name: That's Life
Moments of desperation turn to exasperation
as your foot slips slowly from the ledge.

You will never know the truth, eye for an eye,
and tooth for a tooth, gotta get by with what you got
or face the edge of

Death, destruction, living in a world of
violence, anger, never gonna run from
push and shove, give and take, nothing
more to say because that's life.

A horrible situation gives way to worsened
altercations as you crawl away with nothing
but your life.

Maybe to you, maybe to me,
we're missing what they see and all
that's known is changed and nothing's
coming back from

Death, destruction, living in a world of
violence, anger, never gonna run from
push and shove, give and take, nothing
more to say because that's life.
Track Name: Head Start
Gimme a head start, your whole heart
any little thing you wish I wish it too.

Sun not set but framed on the horizon,
laying in the freshest snow.

But I watched my present, past, and future,
melt away in the sunrise.

So I just stuck my car in drive, waited for the summer

Cause I will always remember every little word you gave,
from the cradle to the grave, because I don't take your words
for granted, I never have.

I will always remember, every little wish and pray, even if you never
say the words, I will remember, "Everything will be okay."
Track Name: Heroes
I wish I could capture a sentiment in so many words
but I guess that's just not my style. And as I walk the streets of my neighborhood
I don't have any qualms. It never belonged to me, it doesn't feel like mine.
I didn't grow with these trees I didn't watch this sunrise. I guess I never knew what I had.
I guess my home can't be bought by mom and dad

My heroes never hit close to home
Because home is where the heart is
And I don't have one of those.

Remnants of snowmen in a stranger's yard
that I pass by mindlessly, just as mindless as the winter
has been to us all. Everyone's dreaming of a white Christmas to
blanket this town but I don't dream for that
cause my dreams don't really come true and I don't want to ruin this for everyone.

My heroes never hit close to home
Because home is where the heart is
And I don't have one of those.
Track Name: Until It's My Time
Drunk, smoking borrowed cigarettes in
a makeshift frat house driveway
I dreamed of tour bus stints
and long hauls on the highway
I was going to school
on my parents borrowed dime
now I'm working two jobs for rent and dreaming part-time

but I
just wanna get by
until it's my time
until it's my time

And every single night I'm awoken
by nearing sirens
I live to close to hospitals
and also too much violence
I wish that every voice
that I heard when I sleep
would give a little hope instead of calling me a creep

but I
just wanna get by
until it's my time
until it's my time
I got off late the other night
and reminisced about my past
and I know these hard times
aren't really gonna last
but when your slogging through the hours
by the glow of a little screen
you lose a bit of self and now I never feel like me

but I
just wanna get by
until it's my time
until it's my time
and when my number comes in
I hope I keep my head
cause I don't want to piss off
and then be left for dead
cause I need love around me
I need friends and words
cause if I'm all alone
that is when I'll really hurt
That's when I'll really hurt
but I
just wanna get by
until it's my time
until it's my time
Track Name: Contagious
Like an old book
now I am hooked
into your story
and now we are linked
i'll stand up beside you
we'll rise above
we'll fight it with love
as long as you don't give up

There's not much more
that I can do
I wish there was more
that I could do

I feel it contagious, present and painless,
we will prevail,
just don't think of failure
with every step back
we'll get on the right track
if one day I'm falling too
can I rely on you?

There's not much more
that I can do
I wish there was more
that I could do

Time heals all wounds (unless I'm gonna bleed out)
I've been there too (How many times can I die?)
What can I say this time (There's nothing good)
To make it alright (There's nothing left here)
I wish there was more that I could do (There's nothing)
Track Name: Car Ballet
Breathe, take a little moment for yourself
See that everything's not as dark as you had felt
I remember the best of times with closest friends
and how I never wanted it to end

Whether it be early morning rides to class
car ballets dancing on highways scrawled across
the frosted glass, or dodging cop cars trying to
run away, getting drunk in garages in flyoverstate, USA

I miss my friends where did they go?
Look at me all on my own.
I guess I'm glad I could be
at least a page in your story
Track Name: Docs and Drugs
I don't wanna write about bad dreams, relationships or sadness,
but it's hard to be happy when I'm laid out on this mattress
i've been ticking off to-do lists like video game missions
no matter how many I do I'm still stuck in this awkward position

ticking the days off waiting for these pills to kick in
cause I don't want to wonder when my life is gonna begin
I just want to be happy when the birds are singing in the trees
I just want the sun to shine on me and not feel the cold, cold breeze

smile and nod with me so that we can feel okay
I'm gonna take down these bad thoughts like fucking luchadore
let's go for a leisurely bike ride through all of the local parks
let's stay out making stories and falling in love in the dark

ticking the days off waiting for these pills to kick in
cause I don't want to wonder when my life is gonna begin
I just want to be happy when the birds are singing in the trees
I just want the sun to shine on me and not feel the cold, cold breeze

and I don't want to forget myself if these chemicals alter my brain
so if I start to lose my mind and I go a little insane

remember me how I was and not what these things made me into
sometimes you gotta gamble your life if you wanna start anew.

ticking the days off waiting for these pills to kick in
cause I don't want to wonder when my life is gonna begin
I just want to be happy when the birds are singing in the trees
I just want the sun to shine on me and not feel the cold, cold breeze
Track Name: Not Goodbye, See You Later
The roar of the engine
drowned out our sorrow and pain.
The promise of something good on the horizon
had gone as quickly as it came
even if only for one brief moment
we rolled across the plains
as fast as the wind coming in
you were strong enough to have your way

Call me when
you reach the end
I can't go on without you

If I have to wait
to change my fate
for a hundred years or more

that's what I'll do

There was no motorcade but we all wore black
just like we always did
The sight of your face in that cold wooden case
had me feeling like a helpless little kid
fault of none when it was all done
there wasn't much more left to do
We couldn't change that path we walked
now even if we wanted to

Call me when
you reach the end
I can't go on without you

If I have to wait
to change my fate
for a hundred years or more

that's what I'll do
Track Name: An Hour Apart
why is everything
in this whole state
an hour apart
from wherever you are
it really doesn't matter
from where you depart
it'll take an hour to start

and when I wanna hang out with my
friends or go see my family
it's harder to do because an hour is a long ass time
you'll see that soon enough all the rows of
corn and soybeans will turn to a green cloud

why is everything in this whole state an hour apart

I've been driving on these roads so long it's like auto pilot
the same billboards and same old signage
by mile marker 102 I know I'm barely half way
from what I want to do

why is everything in this whole state an hour apart

I don't give a fuck about agriculture
I just don't give a fuck about agriculture
string me up leave me for the vultures
but I don't give a fuck about agriculture

not like a cultural protest, I mean as a decoration
that's the only reason for that declaration
It's all so fucking green, and it just never stops
for the love of God someone throw in a tree or something
Track Name: Love Songs
I don't write love songs
I'm not here to pander all night long
I'm not sober
but I'm not wrong

Rolling down main street
after an all night binge of fire
and though you're are the object of my desire
I move along

cause I'm not right
I'm not a good fit
I'm not a story book ending
with a romantic twist

and I don't write love songs
I'm not here to pander all night long
I'm not sober
but I'm not wrong

Grubbing through yard sales
shopping in thrift stores
waiting one more night
to think of other ways to fail

killing me slowly
waiting for the next page to take a turn
the only thing I've ever learned
is that I'm a sinking ship

and I don't write love songs
I'm not here to pander all night long
I'm not sober
but I'm not wrong

even if I ditch the emotional math
and try to forget about the past
I'm running cause I'm scared
I'm hiding cause it's all I know
I think that you deserve better
cause I'm the anti of anti-heroes
this is all I've got going for me
a vortex of jealousy and self-doubt

and I don't write love songs
Track Name: I Want to Piss Off My Cis Gendered White Republican Family
I want to re-distribute your paycheck
I want to re-distribute your paycheck
I am gonna take your money from out of
your bank and I'm gonna give it to
some unemployed homeless gay black athiest

I want to disengender your children
I want to disengender your children
I'm gonna take all the things you love
about your genitals and make them
illegal through CNN

I want to make being white a crime
I want to make being white a crime
If someone is out in public without
the assistance of someone colored
they will be stoned to death every time

I want to make every single drug legal
I want to make every single drug legal
You can do your coke, and mushrooms,
and marijuana cigarettes on the back of
a soaring bald eagle

You'll have to get fast food at the DMV
You'll have to get all fast food at the DMV
I'm gonna take away the trans fats and run
it through the government because that sounds
like a reasonable thing to me

I want to make being white a crime
I want to make being white a crime
If someone is out in public without
the assistance of someone colored
they will be stoned to death every time

You have to be gay at least once a month
it's now required to be gay once a month
don't think that it's crude and go out and
blow a dude becuse you can't be closed off
to experience

Excercise is now mandaroty
Excercise is totally mandatory
the only regimens that we will allow will be
ballet classes, hot yoga, embroidery

I want to make being white a crime
I want to make being white a crime
If someone is out in public without
the assistance of someone colored
they will be stoned to death every time
Track Name: Drinking and Losing
I used to get drunk on Wednesday specials
and shots of whiskey
I would drown the feelings that I never really
wanted to have
Now I question every murmur in the back of my mind
and listen to the out of pace rhythm of my hungover heart

When my crutch became my legs
I knew I'd changed

The shakes, the bends, the spins, and all the anger
weren't enough to keep my hand from all the bottles
a temporary fix that happens also to taste great
I could die like this, and I almost did

When my crutch became my legs I knew I'd changed
Though I knew that I would never stay the same
when my crutch became my legs I knew I'd changed

Woah,
pour me another.
Stop

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